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Fatigue

by L'Rain

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1.
Fly, Die 02:00
2.
Find It 06:17
How did I collect these clouds? From rain that fell for days. Feel bad just to feel sane. My mother told me... Make a way out of no way Why do we still fear the sky, when planes still soar like gods? Feel mad just to feel sane. Somebody told me... Make a way out of no way Who will I pass my eyes to? Mix bodies into soup. Feel sad just to feel sane. Nobody told me... Make a way out of no way
3.
Round Sun 00:21
4.
Blame Me 03:31 video
You were wasting away, my god. I'm making my way down south. I was born naked into this world. You never let me see you cry. Gave you nothing inside of my time— maybe that’s what ends your life. Fought my demons until you were old— maybe ‘cause you love me. Thinking ‘bout it lately: future poison-blooded little babies. Waste away now. Make my way down.
5.
Black Clap 00:26
6.
Damn, son tell me what you want to do (about me). Your mother’s buried under life’s debris (sorry). We’ll spit like swallows if you want it too (tell me). Poison drifting out of me into you (inside of me). When I found my bleak future before I was fully nurtured. Past present future hybrid creatures Doesn’t matter if they’re real: I fear they’re real.
7.
Love Her 00:17
8.
Kill Self 01:51
9.
Not Now 00:10
10.
Two Face 04:06 video
Walked up to your door will you let me in? Hello loneliness, brotherly kin. When you close your eyes, do you think of me singing every word, holding both your hands, crying by your side? I can’t build no new nothing no new life no new nothing for me. I’ve gotten all of my bricks aligned but mortar’s escaping me. "Ze wandering," my mind numbing, say something! Palms make future plans, you might let me in. Goodbye mercury, loverly sin. When you close your eyes, do you think of me singing all your words softly? I can’t build no new nothing no new life no new nothing for me. I’ve gotten all of my bricks aligned but mortar’s escaping me. "Ze wandering," my mind numbing, say something...
11.
Walk Through 00:17
12.
I V 02:25
13.
Need Be 01:01
14.
Take Two 03:09

about

Brooklyn-born and based experimentalist and multi-instrumentalist Taja Cheek, aka L’Rain, is mapping the enormity of how to change. Her forthcoming second album, Fatigue, demands introspection from ready ears with an array of keyboards, synths, and hauntingly delicate vocals that create a genre entirely her own. Cheek has dipped her toes in every corner of the arts, through her work at some of the most prestigious art institutions in NYC and collaborations with the likes of Naama Tsabar, Kevin Beasley, Justin Allen, and others in contemporary arts.

How do we think through, express for, attest to, commit within and embody a substantive change for ourselves? How do we enact change in the company of others? What does it mean to internally engage with an abolition politic? These questions compose and propel the sonic energy of Fatigue. Over the course of 14 tracks, L’Rain continues her careful plotting of where we travel when cruising along the side alleys and major roads of an emotional city. Fatigue progresses the psychic collage assembled from her self-titled debut. Fatigue, while still cycling the wheel of grief, veers into the self-reckoning of holding emotional multiplicities that do not and cannot remain static. Cheek knows how we feel, and who we feel, expanding ever outward.

In the closing moments of the opening track, “Fly, Die”, we are asked, ‘What have you done to change?” This question is both invitation and invocation. Change and changing is not something done alone; it is a group process. L’Rain is clear in her desire for the collective to reflect and feel, admit and deny, balance and discard, consider and implement with her.

With a release date in 2021, the timing of Fatigue is not coincidental. Collectively, we are navigating the immense and looming figure of unremitting fatigue brought on by the ongoing pandemic, mass death, continued violence against Black people at the hands of the state, and the mountain range of systemic problems obstructing safety and security for the people that need it most. This quick succession of events wears our resilience to weariness. To question the nature of change with the awareness of weariness is to question the nature of exhaust: what are we putting out?

Fatigue puts out slippery sonics that Cheek describes as “approaching songness.” This “approaching songness” highlights L’Rain’s commitment to the experimental value of process as her practice. Heavily blending genres (thus making new unnameable space for herself) including but not limited to gospel, jazz, and neo-soul, Fatigue fractures and mends our expectations of what musicians, especially Black women musicians, are categorized to do versus what they need to do (and actually do).

In many ways, Fatigue is a sonic meditation on finding balance through the obliteration of binary logic. Refusing the finitude of either/or, L’Rain readily embraces the flexibility both/ and provides. “This album is an exploration of the simultaneity of human emotions...the audacity of joy in the wake of grief, disappointment in the face of accomplishment. The pervasiveness of this layering of emotions can be surprising, empowering, and discouraging;
these overlaps happen every single moment, all the time,” L’Rain expresses. “I might be trying to be heard more on this record. You can hear more of the words, my vocals are louder.” This sentiment is most clearly, though subtly, expressed in the titles of the tracks. The titles can be read as a poem of 28 words and 14 lines, potentially divided into 3 stanzas. The presentation of poetic intervention brilliantly subverts our expectations of what lyrics do, where they present, thesummarization of ideas, where and how marginalized people can be read or misread. “Black people, who, in the face of violence and discrimination, are often given little time to process.” The poetics of Fatigue gains even more radical momentum when we make clear how much of Black process and processing are forcibly rendered into abbreviation.

Fatigue encourages us to listen, laugh, mourn, hum, linger, realize, know, accept and release who we are, who and what we can be when we allow movements of change to be a necessary component of, not an antithesis to, rest.

credits

released June 25, 2021

All songs written by Taja Cheek
Produced by Taja Cheek and Andrew Lappin
Executive produced and engineered by Andrew Lappin
Co-produced by Ben Chapoteau-Katz
Mixed by Jake Aron and Andrew Lappin
Sequencing and additional production by Slauson Malone
Mastered by Heba Kadry, NYC

Front cover photograph by Jason Omar Al-Taan
Design and layout by Bailey Elder

Recorded at Black Lodge Recording (Brooklyn, NY), The Honey Jar (Brooklyn, NY), Hook & Fade Studios (Brooklyn, NY), The Mighty Toad (Brooklyn, NY), Studio Windows (Brooklyn, NY), and Sunset Sound Recorders (Los Angeles, CA), 2018-2019

All songs published by Throw Shade Publishing (BMI)

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Taja Cheek - vocals, programming, samples, guitar, bass, synthesizers, keyboards, piano, airhorn, and percussion on all tracks
Jon Bap - background vocals on “Blame Me”
Quinton Brock - monologue and vocal performance on “Fly, Die” and “Two Face”
E.T. Cali - radio announcer on “Two Face”
Ben Chapoteau-Katz - synth on “Find It,” “Kill Self,” and “Take Two,” saxophone on “Find It,” “Blame Me,” “Suck Teeth,” “Kill Self,” “Two Face,” “I V,” and “Take Two,” vocals on “Two Face,” percussion on “Find It” and “Suck Teeth,” airhorn on “Fly, Die,” and general special sauce
Tiger Darrow - cello on “Find It”
Buz Donald - drums and percussion on “Find It” and “Suck Teeth”
Alex Goldberg - drums and percussion on “Fly, Die,” “Two Face,” and “I V”
Travis Haynes - organ and vocals on “Find It”
Carlos Hernandez - assistant engineer on “Find It” and “Two Face”
Devin Hobdy - background vocals on “Two Face”
Andrew Lappin - guitar on “Suck Teeth” and “I V,” programming on “Find It” and “Kill Self”
Alita Moses - background vocals on “Find It” and “I V”
Taj Sapp - background vocals on “Find It” and “I V”
Jake Sherman - organ and clavinet on “Find It” and “Suck Teeth”
Mike Stephenson - background vocals on “Find It” and “I V”
Abby Swidler - viola on “Find It”
Zosha Warpeha - violin on “Find It”
Anna Wise - background vocals on “Blame Me”
Gabriel Zucker - string arrangement on “Find It”

Special thanks to:

Lorraine Porter, rest in power, Wyatt Cheek, Deidre Ferrell, Rachel Ferrell, Ron Ferrell, rest in power, Joselia Rebekah Hughes, Devin Starks, Justin Felton, Zack Weinstein, Jeff Koenig, Keith Abrahamsson, Gil Israel, Ami Phipps, Samantha Thompson, Matt Werth, Dane Orr, Steve Vealey, Jake Agger, Jason Omar Al-Taan, Emily Schubert, Latisha Chong, Spencer Murphy, Emmanuel Olunkwa, Aria Dean, Scott Shinton, Arpan Somani, Luke Myers, Lisa Nelson, Halo Rossetti, Albert Baliwas, Angel Deradoorian

Infinite gratitude to the people, communities, and spirits that made this record possible.
To the beautiful duo that raised me, please know that I keep you and this pact close: ABPOWYAATYB.
Ms. Angelou, thank you for "Reverses" and the tools within.

♥ Taja / L’Rain

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L'Rain Brooklyn, New York

Under the mononym L'Rain, Brooklyn native Taja Cheek has quickly become an
acclaimed and sought-after figure in New York experimental music. A multi-instrumentalist, songwriter, and vocalist, her songs are equally rooted in r&b, jazz, noise, and pop: at once visceral, spiritual, ethereal, and urgent. ... more

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